itest7的部落格

我不是一個很容易迷戀偶像的人，從小到大或多或少有崇拜誰，但是大多也是買了某人的唱片看了他演的戲，然後多看了幾回這樣，但這樣的迷戀，卻總是發生在從來不是我擅長的運動這個領域上。
1996年，台灣職籃正夯，當時國二的我受到同學和哥哥影響也開始看，一開始就喜歡了周俊三，只因個子不高的他成為年少的我「挑戰不可能」的最佳範版，在學業忙碌的國高中，我認識了一票「筆友」(當時電腦還不盛行)，每日唸完書之後我的娛樂就是寫信，一寫就是六張起跳、有時到十多張的信紙，同時在通信的筆友少說也有2.30個，而我們聊天的內容自然都是宏國最近發生了甚麼、阿三最近發生了甚麼、籃球界怎麼樣了...我每日蒐集剪報，有好幾次半夜偷偷溜出門去買報紙，升上大學後網路開始興起，大學生活讓我逐漸與筆友們斷了聯絡，但有了網友們，我的球迷生涯不再寂寞，每天打開電腦就可以看到一堆新聞和討論。從宏國解散新浪接手、再到新浪出走大陸，我從來就沒有與籃球斷了聯繫，也因此我總是到處跟人說，因為阿三哥，我想我會當一輩子的籃球迷。

I'm looking for a job for almost 3 months.
All right, I'm not very active actually....

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OK, now it's really kind of an end for me. I didn't mean I've finished my 5th term at ITI and starting the 6th, what I meant is a period of time with my foreign friends. Oh GOD I started to miss you immediately after you all left. :((
Term5 is kind of a special term for me. I became a group leader for the first time and tried to deal with group affairs as well as possible. Although still something which made me unhappy happened at the end of the term, basically most of the time was ok. I also want to thank for most of my group members, after all it's really a .........well complicated group.
I also learned a lot in Reon's meeing class. I was happy for my performance as a chairperson in the final week after several disappointing performance- although it's because of my not willing to interrupt others or disagree with others intensively. I did memorize some useful meeting diplomatic languages and used them and I'm happy to be Reon's student again in Negotiation class in the coming term.
I'm also proud of my high scores in Tessa's business report class since I did try hard from the beginning. Actually our group in term5 is one of  the most relaxing group, but I always believe that part of what you learn always depends on yourself...On the other hand, in business courses I felt a little bit disappointed with myself also with the school arrangements. After one term my financial management knowledge is still almost equal to nothing....-_-...kind of shame......
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The most important thing in this term is to know these lovely new friends. (Most of them are from Central and Southern America and speak Spanish!) I'm really happy to have their accompany during the past couple of weeks...Today when I went to their empty dorm, it really made me sad. At the time Emilia's getting on the taxi I almost couldn't stop my tears.......suddenly I thought of the situation last year, I didn't keep in touch with any of the foreign students and they also didn't try to contact with me. It's really sad....I hope things won't happen again. I really think I have better relationship with them this year, and we have many unforgetable memories...
I really don't like saying goodbye.....especially when I don't know if I can see someone again...so I just felt sad and depressed the whole day. :(
To Emilia, thanks for your warm hugs and cheek kisses every time I saw you...
To Ainara, I hope I'll see you soon in Madrid!!...
To Pilar, don't forget to keep in touch and we can discuss Real Madrid then:D...
To Angel, thanks for teaching me some Spanish and sorry for not being able to say goodbye to you face to face but I know we'll keep in touch:)...
To Andrea, you're so sweet all the time and thanks for your beautiful bookmark, I'll keep it with me...
Special thanks to Javi because you always would like to talk with me no matter on line or face to face even if I know you're quite busy for work and you always have good questions and good points. I will really miss the time with you:(...
Also thanks to other foreign students although we didn't have much time to talk a lot......
I bought a microphone, so we may talk online if you guys meet me. :) However, I guess the problem will be the time difference....anyway we can still keep in touch in facebook or by mail.
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Life is kind of tough because even if I feel lonely I still need to keep going on my way. Keep going and going...........
The new term is coming and I know it will also finish soon. To cherish all the time I'm living in is the most important thing.
Be optimistic and brave! The 6th term, I'm coming anyway!

為了方便親愛的朋友們閱讀，這篇決定寫中文(笑)。
很久沒寫blog了，除了忙之外更多的是沒有了寫blog的熱情...時間過得很快，我來新竹已經有一年多了。

光復路
西餐禮儀in 國賓飯店
Here at ITI, time always goes fast. 
I know I didn't write down anyting for a while. Actually I can't tell that I didn't write anything is because I'm too busy or I'm too lazy, or in fact I just don't want to take time on it.......I don't know. Maybe all of them are part of my reasons, and maybe another reason is I told myself I should write in English and that made me even lazier to write.
All right, no matter what happenes I've passed my third term at ITI. Now next week my forth term is coming, and I think I've prepared well to face ther new term. The last month of the third term is quite busy, and I didn't keep my promise - I slept less and less, and it's not good. I just couldn't let myself be lazy and not to review anything although actually I really couldn't handle so many things at the same time.
I know I'm still not open-minded enough. I restricted myself  too much. I still don't have enough confidence, no matter inside or outside. I can pretend I have, but I know myself.
Recently a lot of things happende in our class. Although they're not my business, I can't say we weren't affected. The only thing I can say is LOVE is so sweet but it's also so dangerous that once you didn't pay attention you may make big mistakes or love someone you shouldn't love. Sometimes when the passion became the past, love can be transferred to hate or became a scar in your mind.
More and more of my past classmates got married or became pregnant. For me it's just like another stage of life, and still too far for me. I know real life is more stressful than we can imagine . I know real life is not a fairy tale, but I still desire to have somebody to share my happiness and sorrow. I told myself again and agin without a man I can still live well - even better, but who can tell me how to conquer the loneliness when you're alone in a silent night again again and again? Usually I was very busy, so I wouldn't think this kind of things, but I found that recently when the past memory surged me, I felt very frustrated.
I'm on the way to a independent businesswoman, but to my surprise, in my deep mind I still want to have someone to rely on. What a sarcasm!  Where is he and Why do I need to estimate myself through other people's words?
I'm happy at ITI, but I'm still feel confused about many things. Life, future, target............
元宵吃湯圓
以下都是在國賓飯店的西餐禮儀

At my 27 year old birthday, I finished my 2nd term at ITI. Congratulations to myself! 
Time even went faster than last term. I remembered Vera  said that she promised us that we would have worse feeling at the 2nd term, but actually I didn't. Maybe it's because I've got used to life here and don't miss home so much right now. Everything here is just becoming better and better. I got not bad grades in most of my trade courses. Although we usually had open-book exam this term, I still tried to study something. Ther only pity is I'm not satisfied with my level of improvemnet of English. I should learn more and speak more. I even didn't read any novel for myself. It's not a good way for learning a language.
However, no matter how busy I was, I still keep my review habit all the term, It's not easy to do and that lets me go to bed later and later. It's not good for my health because I spent too less time on sleeping continously. The condition is even worse than the 1st term. I have good mood most of the time, but I should remind myself giving something up for my health. Maybe it will be one of my extra target next term.
There was something different from the 1st term. We held a successful Halloween party and enjoyed the interesting night. I started to learn Spanish outside the campus and kept learning now - although my memory is really bad now. My target is after I graduated from ITI, I could go to Spain by myself and daily dialogue is not a big problem for me. At least Iker will understand what I say if I can have a look Real Madrid's training courses.:P I learn Spanish for interests, and for the reason I would like to spend my treasure time on it. I also had very good new English teachers this term. I hope next term I can also so lucky as this term.
Time to take a rest :)
Oh....I'll have a trip with my classmated in YiLan the following two days, I believe it's going to be fun. ! :)
Today is also my birthday, I want to say happy birthday to myself and wish my dream will come true.
I'm at dorm now but I don't feel lonely anymore. I'm braver now without you. You know this period of time it should be a worse time for me because at the same time in last year, it was part of my happiest time in my life. I still dreamed of you, but it wouldn't beat me anymore because I know what I should do now. I'll keep going and expect for the coming of Term3.
¡Feliz cumpleaños a me!
¡Animo Elisa!
跟我最喜歡的老師Ryan在萬聖節
Group5   很帥吧
跟中南美洲的朋友
with 只會講西文雞同鴨講的Carlos
年興紡織企業參訪
Reon家烤肉
我跟Reon
偽‧西餐禮儀in古拉爵(我的裙子太短了= =)

This time, it's really time to say goodbye.
I received Ori's phonecall just one hour ago. I'm so surprised that I can not say anyting. There is one more thing I'm more surprised. He said that he is going to leave Taiwan tomorrow and will never come back again. His company went bankrupt and he even did not get his salary last month. I asked him why he leaves so hurry. He said because he can not get any salary here, if he continues staying here it's just kind of wasting time. He just knew he was fired last week and busy to pick up all his stuff.
I said, "You should tell me earlier because I came back to Taichung last weekend...."
The truth is, I don't think if you really want to see me, you won't tell me this until now.
Actually it's worthless because he is already not my "somebody". We haven't seen each other more than half a year and I don't think he really thinks of me somehow. So his staying or leaving shouldn't affect me anyway, but the truth is -- I can't stop crying when I hung up the phone. Past memory start sto surge me and it let my heart really painful. Suddenly I want to go back to Taichung and have a look at him, but then I stop my crazy behavior.
Does he really deserve my care with all my heart? After all, he chose to leave me and hurt me so much. It won't change anything, no matter what I do.
I'm very sorry for his situation and I'll always bless him. Otherwise, it's useless to talk too much.
Just----------Why  my heart feels so painful now?
Dry my tears. I know I need to become brave and tough. I still can live happily without you. 
Goodbye and take good care-------it's the last time.
"You made my life. But I'm just one chapter in yours. There'll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends. 
P.S. I will always love you"
said by Gerry, from the movie "P.S I love you"

Yesterday I came back to Taichung because I have finished my first term at ITI.
During the 3 months I learned a lot although life was really tough in the beginning, but everything is getting better and better, even I can type my journals faster. I think I should thank Vera, haha...(She is my writing teacher, also a very hard-working teacher. I learned a lot from her.)

I'm getting busier and busier. After checking my schedule I found that I may have totally no time to come back home this month. The schedule of August is fully booked.
Last Monday we got an extra day off because of the typhoon. But after that we got more and more homework, and I found that every teacher is in a hurry. So after the day off my condition of busy life is even worse. =.=
I learned a lot here. Not only push youself to be better but also be more independent. I cherish weekends more because I can have more rest time then. Without weekends I don't know how to keep the energy.
Actually my health condition is not good recently. I caught a cold last week and I can't escape from staying up and drinking coffee.
The actual world is cruel. You can find that some people can always get teachers' points, chat a lot every day, but they can still finish their homework soon and come home to be relaxed every weekend. Also the exams or in English classes they can still perform much better than you. The cruel fact is I'm not that kind of people. I may need to spend three times more than others but get worse grades. I could never change the situation but accept it.
But I believe I also have some of my advantages. Maybe I have't have  fitting chances to show them.
Just keeping going. I don't like the accounting and economics, but I still need to learn them.
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The new season of La LIGA is coming soon and I feel very disappointed that I can't watch them. But I won't forget my loving team and I wish Real Madrid will win more titles this year.
And to someone:
Sometimes I still miss you and I still cried for you. But I know without you I'll be better. I won't forget you and our memory, but I don't think I will contact with you continually. From the side I may need to thank god for my busy life. I know I need to go ahead without looking backward. That's why I'm here.
No matter I succeed or not, I've learned a lot form other people.