itest7的部落格

還是在想 是自己太遜咖了
為什麼別人一下子就弄好的東西我要弄好幾個小時 成果還比別人糟
我今天上完經濟真的沮喪到無以復加
(為了節省時間本篇寫中文)
剛好室友去圖書館念書了
我就在宿舍狂哭 哭到晚餐也沒去吃
只是在想為什麼自己那麼差勁    時間管理那麼差      
每天都睡比別人少 事情還做得比別人少
為什麼我就這麼不聰明     反應這麼慢
才第三周 我已經開始打退堂鼓了
沒有一點成就感的時候 真的不知道自己怎麼撐下去
如果我是念商或外文系畢業的就好了
我真的跟不上老師跟大家的腳步       一天比一天狀況更糟
周末想回家卻可能無法回家(我上周已經沒回去了)      
每天都好想睡卻寫功課念書到三更半夜 然後隔天再打瞌睡不斷惡性循環
組長問 你要想想你當初來ITI    到底為了甚麼
為了甚麼?      我真的不知道
念商的念外文的 念台大的 你們根本不知道我念得有多痛苦有多沮喪
你們根本無法體會      而我也不像你們充滿了要當國際貿易人的企圖心
好希望有一點點成就感 一點點也好
不然我真的心理生理都撐不下去了
我好想台中
沒時間哭太久 還要念後天要考的會計 還要準備明天英文的presentation
還要準備小組的東西 還要做功課       
看不到自己的明天 我真的不知道該怎麼繼續下去

2 weeks passed, I know I should write something for my life here. But actually I'm always busy and tired here everyday, also I'll have my first accounting exam next Friday, so I don't think I can write much. 
I want to mention something. Bucause I want to be accustomed to write in English so from now on if I write any journal here I'll try more in English.
What a wondeerful day today is! Finally I can wake up later!=.= 
Here I always have to wake up at 6:00AM for BBC news from Monday to Friday, so It's the reason why I really need weekends! But still on the weekends I need to do a lot of homework and prepare for the exams. That's why I seldom occurred at my MSN. Usually if I'm online I'm still busy for asking questions to my classmates - of course in English. 
So I need to say sorry to my closed friends because I am really busy and exhausted every day. If you really want to contact my, try to phone me on the weekends , it would be much better. Although I need to write English journals here at least twice a week but because it's hand-writing, if I want to type here it will take me much time and I don't have much time right now =.=. That's why I have stayed here 2 weeks but haven't written any blog until now.
I hope I can have 40 hours a day here! And I also feel frustrated here because of my classmates' abilities. Accounting classes really let me feel annoyed, I even don't understand 90% what the teacher is talking about and I'll have an big exam next week! Oh my goodness!
Everyday when I finally could go to bed I always found that I'm the person who goes to bed latest on my floor. My classmates thought that I study hard but the truth is because I do things too slowly and my English ability isn't as good as them. Economics and accouting are even worse! Most of them can at least understand parts of what the teacher said but for me, I can just understand 5% and most of the time I can just sit there and feel I'm puzzled ~_~........
I'm really afraid that I can't pass the exam......................
Another thing is I also make sacrifices for studying here. I have no time to contact with my friends, I have no time to watch soccer games here, and I also can't have enough time to sleep every day :( And with such a busy life we even still need to do a lot of reading ( of course in English, I mean some novels or English business websites) every week, so I can just have no alternative but keeping reading, reading and reading although it's not a pleasure at all now because it's what we need to do, not what we want to do. Imagine you need to read an English novel at midnight...how could it become a pleasure?
I knew the news about Spain won the EURO Cup and Iker will have chances to win the Golden Ball. I'm really excited for that but I just have no tme to read too much news about that:(. But I still want to say: VIVA ESPANA!!!!!!  and  HALA MADRID! :D
Keep going and hope that everything will get better soon..........

都沒想到時間過這麼快
要搬到新竹去了.........好緊張
希望一切都很好      遇到很好的室友、很喜歡的老師
過著即使忙碌   也很開心的日子...........

穿著雨衣騎車回家的路上     突然想起這首歌    於是回來就立刻換上了
現在腦海裡還迴盪著這首歌的旋律
(歌詞完全就是符合心境)

果然印證我所說的     "遺失的美好"鈴聲總在不經意響起

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唱歌好聽的人總是比較醜
打球打得好的人總是比較矮
想做很多事的時候時間總是比較少
沒啥事可以做的時候時間總是很多

不連絡第19天 我手賤撥了電話(真遜)     晚上10點多
避免冷場我還先擬了要講什麼的稿子    以前交往的時候都是他怕冷場
其實這週以來我一直都想跟他說話       但一直為自己找理由     一天拖一天

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